Summer Notes

A tattered green composition book has been the home of my thoughts for the past three summers. None of the following are in order, but they are thoughts I immediately wrote down. I am sharing them now.

I.
Guys hurry up.
Don't smoke, kiddos.

II.
Its dark and I'm alone in the city. A revolution was fought here. Why am I stil standing.

III.
The piano is not firewoods yet but a heart can't be helped and it gathers regret. R.S.

IV.
Wood wood wood

V.
Incredible amounts of mallets. They amass I guess.

VI.
Laundry
Water bottle
F451
Bathroom
Set measures s. 1 2
Dresser

VII.
On. Noise is off. Noises off.

VIII.
My house was a summer camp in the 1950s. I like to think that my bedroom was used as the science or art room. I hope it was.

IX.
Copley to park st
Green
Park street » downtown crossing
Red
Downtown » chinatown
Orange

X.
Ireland

XI.
Jessica was sweet

XII.
I so want to begin to love again but you're still here

I cant really do roman numerals past this point.

13.
It always shocks
Me
To no end
That february comes and goes
That holy spaces
Are found
In any place we want them to be
That her letter arrived
Safe
That my mind doesnt hold stars
That we are so far away

I cant touch you.

14.
Is it possible to love too much

15.
Because I think I do.

16.
We got home at 3 in the morning and you slept on the way

17.
E    C
N   A
D    R
L    R
E    Y
S
S    existance
L
Y

H
U
M
A
N

18.
Please

19.
Always correspond with far away friends

20.
55 e washington. Who did she go to?

21.
They told me to breathe
I'm not

22.
I saw you walking your dog today, except it wasnt you and I was alone on the street.

23.
Am I ok or what?

24.
I'm sorry that I spilled some of me on you. It should come out in due time. It will I promise. Keep walking.

25.
I think I look really cute today but I also dressed up for no one they do not appreciate my efforts none of them

26.
I think today is dedicated to forgetting time
To burning bridges
To churches in Maine
To Amelia Earheart
To those last 17 cents from your coffee
To old pizza
To preschool graduation
To my favorite lighter
To great aunt Marions senior prom
To old socks
To new habits

27.
Old eraser shavings. What did I write?

28.
You left the blood stains on my favorote shirt. I try to forget but these blotches remind me

29.
He kissed me in a hallway
I let him and I kissed back
He held my heart in a lacquer box
And tucked it in hos worn out leather jacket
That smelled like soap
Cigarettes
And nature.
His hands held my hips
And his lips pressed my nose
And he said "I long for you"
(It was a lie)

30.
Maybe she made me feel wanted

31.
Maybe she made me feel unwanted

32.
I'm not sure what it smells like

33.
(I like to think I've moved on)

34.
Naumkeag
Nom keg
Enjolras
Coufeyrac
Baliene
Switched
Baleine
Whale